It's 3:30 PM and the school day has just ended. A herd of adolescent boys are meandering their way out through the gymnasium doors, still licking wounds and applying ice packs from another infamous dodgeball beatdown courtesy of Mr. Gabe. My end-of-day routine over the past few years of teaching has not changed: gather up the scattered equipment, turn off the lights, shut the windows, and retreat to my office to plan the next day's events. Today, however, is different: I've got an appointment at a nearby flight school to take my first flying lesson, a discovery flight with a real flight instructor in a real airplane. I've been planning this day for a few months now, and in thinking that it's finally here has relegated the other events of today to the Land of Forgotten Priorities. It's a miracle I even remembered to show up to school today, much less teach lessons effectively. In just a few minutes, I'll be at the controls of a Cessna 172, the first step in what I hope to be an incredible journey. The entire day has been consumed with my head in the clouds as I anticipate the things to come. What will it be like? I can hardly wait. The minutes on my stopwatch tick ever slower once the afternoon comes, almost as though it were taunting me. Three times in the past week I'd made similar appointments with this pilot, only to be denied once because of weather and twice because of work commitments. If it doesn't happen today, I'm not sure what I'll do. I only know one thing: I cannot wait to find out what it's like to fly.
I sprint to my car and make it out of the parking lot ahead of the school buses, much to the dismay of my principal, who knows nothing of my ambitions to fly airplanes and even less about dodgeball. No matter; the lure of the skies is real, and I've got an appointment to keep. Each stoplight along the way is an eternity, each soccer-Mom minivan seems to go 5 MPH slower than the previous one. I'm driving in quicksand today. That's what it feels like.
With my Mapquest directions printout riding shotgun, I navigate closer to the airstrip and a few moments later I step out of my car and gaze out upon the runway. For some, airports hold the same level of appeal as pumpkin pie. To me, they've always had a certain mystique to them, like a forbidden world full of hope and excitement. Airports are, for the most part, a happy place: people are excited for vacations, for honeymoons, to visit family, or to see an old friend. Airports connect people. Who doesn't love that? Even disgruntled businessmen love airports and airplanes, if for nothing else than an excuse to guzzle scotch at 30,000 feet.
A few moments later, I step into the main offices and meet Eric, the pilot who I'm entrusting the next sixty minutes of my life to. I sign some paperwork, a formality really, saying that my family cannot sue his family if we somehow crash and become a flaming rubble. It wouldn't have mattered what the document said; the airplane's sitting just a few feet away, ready for us to climb in and takeoff. I would have signed over my life savings at that point, I would have signed over my allegiance to the Green Bay Packers-anything to get inside that plane and off this ground.
I don't remember much from that first flight. It was like being in a dream. Just a few moments after the landing gear lifted off, the instructor gave me the flight controls. Me. Flying an airplane. How are you supposed to act the first time you experience a dream come true? I did my best to stay composed, but inside I was busting. It was the best feeling I'd ever experienced. The entire hour was surreal.
In the weeks that followed, I began to detach myself to the elementary school and became more absorbed in the pursuit of my dream to fly. Soon I was bringing in pilot textbooks and reading them during my prep periods. Once I'd tasted flight, everything else became insignificant. I had to fly again.
This past week marked exactly one year ago that I decided to embark on what's been the wildest journey of my life. I would have never guessed it would turn out the way it has. I'm often asked if I have regrets. Would I, if given the chance, turn back the clock to last April and tell myself to forget about flying? Listen closely: there is something, inside each of us, that yearns for greatness. Lying dormant in some perhaps, but it's there. And had I let my fears or reservations about taking on this challenge dissuade me from diving in, I would have never discovered the drive that lay within me. No matter what happens from this point forward, I'm cool with my decision with no regrets. I've been incredibly lucky to have made it this far. I've still got light years to go, but I'm closer now than I was a year ago. By the end of this month, I'll have accumulated more than 500 flight hours and a lifetime's worth of memories from the skies. I'm a pilot now, but most importantly, I am living my dream.
Tomorrow, at 5:30 PM, I'm scheduled to conduct an intro flight for a prospective student. We'll take off and I'll hand over the controls a few moments later, vectoring us around to see the local sights. He'll get a taste of what it's like to fly an airplane. Forgive me if I get a bit nostalgic as I look across the cockpit and see ambitions come to life for the first time. Happy Anniversary...
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
The Long March To 1,500
"Seminole 256AT, radar contact, climb and maintain 7,000, clear direct Crimson VOR."
It's just a shade past 9PM and my student and I are headed back to home base after a day chock full of flying. As cross country flights go, they really don't come any more pleasant than this: my student is, despite his minimal experience, competent at the controls and thorough in his checklist usage, allowing me a few moments of reflection as we enter our cruise altitude. The air is smooth as glass and the sky is devoid of other aircraft here in central Alabama. Our route is free of turbulence and clouds, making these absolute ideal conditions for some night flying. You can see the stars for miles and for that reason, the world seems smaller on this night. Aside from the occasional airliner Captain reporting in with a new altitude, our only combatant against the peaceful dark silence is the constant hum of the propellers. If we can keep our speed up and receive a clearance vector from Atlanta approach control, there's still a chance I can make it to my bed by midnight.
Two months in to full time instructing, moments as these are rare. The days are packed tighter than a blackberry crepe, often times with more obligations than hours needed to fulfill. A couple of scheduled flights, a few hours of ground school, maybe toss in a simulator session or two, and before I can say je suis fatigue it's time to prepare for the next day. Nevermind eating; usually I'm about two meals behind. The days blend together so much that I'm constantly asking my non-pilot friends to confirm what day it is. "Wait, it's Friday? I thought it was Tuesday." No kidding. Happens twice a week.
I'm not complaining. It's an observation, and I'm ok with the schedule. Actually, I never thought it was possible that one could truly love a job. I absolutely love to fly airplanes and feel fortunate to have the job I want in the location I want. I love what I do. And unlike dominating my former 4th grade arch rival students in dodgeball, it's tough.
Each day brings forth new challenges. Right now, I'm struggling to convey the intricate aviation knowledge that I only recently acquired into my students' craniums during a ground school session. If not in the classroom, then I'm in the air, where I deliberately fail engines at dangerously low altitudes, all part of FAA-approved and company mandated pilot training. No pun intended, but flight instructing really is a crash course in becoming a pilot. I'm safe enough to survive my students' mistakes and fly across the country, but am I a good pilot? It's the question that no one can answer now that I'm done with checkrides. If we follow the federal aviation regulations and make it safely from A to B, does that count? What about if my students' keep passing their checkrides? Any credit for that? The short answer is that I don't know. In other endeavors, success is easily identifiable. In flight training, it's a bit more ambiguous, and short of me preventing a student from slamming our aircraft into terrain, I'm not sure what parameters I could use. These are the things I think about.
I also think about the road ahead, and how with every hour of flying time I'm able to log, the goal is that much closer to reality. To be sure, it's still a long, long ways off: the benchmark of aviation experience is determined through flight hours. While I've achieved the necessary ratings to fly for a living and even instruct others, I'm still a rookie in the greybeard pilot's eye, and rightfully so. No airline worth a bag of salted pretzels would even consider touching a pilot with under 500 hours, with many airlines' hiring minimums well in excess of 1,000 hours. For me, I've set my sights on 1,500 hours, the minimum criteria to apply for what's known as the doctorate of aviation: Airline Transport Pilot. It's the highest rating a pilot can earn, and short of getting hired by a small freight company prior to that mark, I plan on flight instructing as a means to reach that end. A quick glance at the logbook shows I have light years to go, but with every botched student pilot landing I survive, I'm that much closer to attaining it. Ever save up spare change in hopes of one day taking a vacation? For every nickel and quarter you put in, it might add up to something great. Same concept here, only the road to 1,500 seems like a slow crawl some days. Maybe I need to quit making logbook entries after every flight. Maybe I need to snake more flights from the tired and experienced instructors. Or maybe I need to stop daydreaming and just enjoy the journey a bit more.
Perhaps that's why I enjoy night flight so much. The tranquility that the darkness offers allows me to relax and breathe easy, knowing that my student is straight-and-level at cruise altitude with minimal workload. The goals I have and the dreams I'm chasing-they'll come in time. For now, the drive to get there is a grueling one, yet it's the exact place I'd choose to be 100 times over. So tomorrow, as I embark on yet another long trip well after sunset, this time to Daytona Beach, forgive me if I take another moment or two to sit back, enjoy the air, and reflect. With one eye on my student, of course.
It's just a shade past 9PM and my student and I are headed back to home base after a day chock full of flying. As cross country flights go, they really don't come any more pleasant than this: my student is, despite his minimal experience, competent at the controls and thorough in his checklist usage, allowing me a few moments of reflection as we enter our cruise altitude. The air is smooth as glass and the sky is devoid of other aircraft here in central Alabama. Our route is free of turbulence and clouds, making these absolute ideal conditions for some night flying. You can see the stars for miles and for that reason, the world seems smaller on this night. Aside from the occasional airliner Captain reporting in with a new altitude, our only combatant against the peaceful dark silence is the constant hum of the propellers. If we can keep our speed up and receive a clearance vector from Atlanta approach control, there's still a chance I can make it to my bed by midnight.
Two months in to full time instructing, moments as these are rare. The days are packed tighter than a blackberry crepe, often times with more obligations than hours needed to fulfill. A couple of scheduled flights, a few hours of ground school, maybe toss in a simulator session or two, and before I can say je suis fatigue it's time to prepare for the next day. Nevermind eating; usually I'm about two meals behind. The days blend together so much that I'm constantly asking my non-pilot friends to confirm what day it is. "Wait, it's Friday? I thought it was Tuesday." No kidding. Happens twice a week.
I'm not complaining. It's an observation, and I'm ok with the schedule. Actually, I never thought it was possible that one could truly love a job. I absolutely love to fly airplanes and feel fortunate to have the job I want in the location I want. I love what I do. And unlike dominating my former 4th grade arch rival students in dodgeball, it's tough.
Each day brings forth new challenges. Right now, I'm struggling to convey the intricate aviation knowledge that I only recently acquired into my students' craniums during a ground school session. If not in the classroom, then I'm in the air, where I deliberately fail engines at dangerously low altitudes, all part of FAA-approved and company mandated pilot training. No pun intended, but flight instructing really is a crash course in becoming a pilot. I'm safe enough to survive my students' mistakes and fly across the country, but am I a good pilot? It's the question that no one can answer now that I'm done with checkrides. If we follow the federal aviation regulations and make it safely from A to B, does that count? What about if my students' keep passing their checkrides? Any credit for that? The short answer is that I don't know. In other endeavors, success is easily identifiable. In flight training, it's a bit more ambiguous, and short of me preventing a student from slamming our aircraft into terrain, I'm not sure what parameters I could use. These are the things I think about.
I also think about the road ahead, and how with every hour of flying time I'm able to log, the goal is that much closer to reality. To be sure, it's still a long, long ways off: the benchmark of aviation experience is determined through flight hours. While I've achieved the necessary ratings to fly for a living and even instruct others, I'm still a rookie in the greybeard pilot's eye, and rightfully so. No airline worth a bag of salted pretzels would even consider touching a pilot with under 500 hours, with many airlines' hiring minimums well in excess of 1,000 hours. For me, I've set my sights on 1,500 hours, the minimum criteria to apply for what's known as the doctorate of aviation: Airline Transport Pilot. It's the highest rating a pilot can earn, and short of getting hired by a small freight company prior to that mark, I plan on flight instructing as a means to reach that end. A quick glance at the logbook shows I have light years to go, but with every botched student pilot landing I survive, I'm that much closer to attaining it. Ever save up spare change in hopes of one day taking a vacation? For every nickel and quarter you put in, it might add up to something great. Same concept here, only the road to 1,500 seems like a slow crawl some days. Maybe I need to quit making logbook entries after every flight. Maybe I need to snake more flights from the tired and experienced instructors. Or maybe I need to stop daydreaming and just enjoy the journey a bit more.
Perhaps that's why I enjoy night flight so much. The tranquility that the darkness offers allows me to relax and breathe easy, knowing that my student is straight-and-level at cruise altitude with minimal workload. The goals I have and the dreams I'm chasing-they'll come in time. For now, the drive to get there is a grueling one, yet it's the exact place I'd choose to be 100 times over. So tomorrow, as I embark on yet another long trip well after sunset, this time to Daytona Beach, forgive me if I take another moment or two to sit back, enjoy the air, and reflect. With one eye on my student, of course.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Earning It
When I first announced I'd be leaving behind my life of teaching to pursue my dream of flying airplane, the reactions from friends and family were mixed. Some celebrated with me and encouraged me. Others dispensed words of wisdom that proved invaluable. Still others did everything short of barricading me inside my house and force me to take up knitting. But the one that sticks with me today is that of my buddy Luke, who took it upon himself to bestow the nickname of 'Captain' upon me. For the next few months, whether we were playing basketball or plowing through a plate of nachos, everything he said to me was prefaced with that moniker. For example, "Uh oh, the Captain is about to fire up the lawnmower!" Or, "Man, the Captain is destroying that apple crisp!" You know, random stuff like that. Naturally, I ate it up. Who doesn't want to be called Captain? Even if you're just a pizza delivery man, it's a good nickname. For me, it was pure gold. Trouble is, I hadn't even stepped foot in an aircraft yet. I had no idea what I was getting into. Giving me that title was more out of place than the Teletubbies being arrested for cocaine possession.
My college basketball coach had a penchant for motivational speeches. One of his favorites was a spinoff of the Marine's slogan 'Earned, Never Given.' Throughout the grueling pre-season conditioning sessions he'd flash a cheesy smile at us and chant those words at us, over and over again. With sweat pouring over every fiber of our bodies, he'd remind us that nothing was ever given to us, that we'd obtain every morsel of success by working hard and earning it. And it was awful. So many days I wanted to quit, my teammates wanted to quit-it was just too hard. But somehow, somewhere inside us, we dug deep to find something greater. After a few weeks of strenuous training, the season finally began. We had earned it.
Those two snapshots of my life illustrate perfectly what I'm experiencing now. So much of this blog has been about facing challenges, leaping hurdles, rising up over mountains, and overcoming adversity in my relentless pursuit of my dream career. For those who've been reading since day one, you'll testify to the fact that it's never been easy, that I've never let my guard down or taken a vacation from learning. I want this, and as evidenced by the turns my life has taken over the past few months, I'm pretty much on the record as being willing to do whatever it takes. The battle of earning it continues for me, only the obstacles in front of me bear a different facing. It's no longer the prospect of another checkride for me, but rather that burden is now placed upon my students. They're the ones going through the same meatgrinder that I just came out of a few months ago, and surprisingly, I'm just as nervous as they are on checkride day. The challenge here lies in preparing them the way I was prepared, to give them my best even though it might not directly affect my livelihood. It's about staying disciplined in the little things, even though it might be the 3rd or even 4th time in a given day that I'm doing something. And I don't mind: flight instructing so far has been remarkably enjoyable. I fly most everyday and am compensated for it. It's exactly what I want to do. But it definitely isn't easy, and even with the unquenching love I have for flying airplanes, the mental toll of always trying to stay 2-3 steps ahead of a novice student pilot is exhausting. There has already been a few moments of sheer terror in the airplane, each of which sprouts a few more grey hairs on my head and causes me to wonder if I'll actually survive a few years of flight instructing. It all comes with the territory, and I love it, but I am definitely earning it.
As always, there are things I cannot control, like the weather, or my students' attitudes. It's frustrating knowing that for every day I do not fly, I remain that much further away from reaching my goals, like that coveted ranking of 'Captain.' I'll get there someday, but until then, I'm going to enjoy the ride and be grateful I've made it this far. Patience and contentment will become my good friends. Because if I'm always striving to be somewhere, I'll never really arrive anywhere.
One last story for the kids: this past week presented me with an opportunity to oversee what's known as a 'Discovery Flight.' Geared towards inspiring people to sign up for a pilot training program, it's usually the first time someone's flown an aircraft. I perform the takeoff and landing, and monitor the safety of the flight from my right seat position, but for the other thirty minutes or so, the person shelling out the $95 gets to manipulate the controls and play pilot for a day. More often than not, people return from these adventures and instantly whip out the credit card for more flying-it's like a drug. I tried my best to show the prospective flier a good time, vectoring him around some of the more scenic areas and minimizing the amount of time I had to grab the yoke for safety's sake. He maintained a smile for most of the ride, and seemed ecstatic at the prospect of becoming a pilot. Things were going well. But towards the end, he began to sweat profusely, and the Hardee's Thickburgers that he had consumed just moments before departing quickly began a digestive rebellion, and only a mile from the runway all hell broke loose inside his stomach, and soon I was faced with a smelly cockpit, a very uncomfortable passenger, and one miserable mess. Flying might not be for everyone. You can be most definitely assured, however, that I earned this hour of paid flight time, and on this day, for once, I didn't want to be Captain.
My college basketball coach had a penchant for motivational speeches. One of his favorites was a spinoff of the Marine's slogan 'Earned, Never Given.' Throughout the grueling pre-season conditioning sessions he'd flash a cheesy smile at us and chant those words at us, over and over again. With sweat pouring over every fiber of our bodies, he'd remind us that nothing was ever given to us, that we'd obtain every morsel of success by working hard and earning it. And it was awful. So many days I wanted to quit, my teammates wanted to quit-it was just too hard. But somehow, somewhere inside us, we dug deep to find something greater. After a few weeks of strenuous training, the season finally began. We had earned it.
Those two snapshots of my life illustrate perfectly what I'm experiencing now. So much of this blog has been about facing challenges, leaping hurdles, rising up over mountains, and overcoming adversity in my relentless pursuit of my dream career. For those who've been reading since day one, you'll testify to the fact that it's never been easy, that I've never let my guard down or taken a vacation from learning. I want this, and as evidenced by the turns my life has taken over the past few months, I'm pretty much on the record as being willing to do whatever it takes. The battle of earning it continues for me, only the obstacles in front of me bear a different facing. It's no longer the prospect of another checkride for me, but rather that burden is now placed upon my students. They're the ones going through the same meatgrinder that I just came out of a few months ago, and surprisingly, I'm just as nervous as they are on checkride day. The challenge here lies in preparing them the way I was prepared, to give them my best even though it might not directly affect my livelihood. It's about staying disciplined in the little things, even though it might be the 3rd or even 4th time in a given day that I'm doing something. And I don't mind: flight instructing so far has been remarkably enjoyable. I fly most everyday and am compensated for it. It's exactly what I want to do. But it definitely isn't easy, and even with the unquenching love I have for flying airplanes, the mental toll of always trying to stay 2-3 steps ahead of a novice student pilot is exhausting. There has already been a few moments of sheer terror in the airplane, each of which sprouts a few more grey hairs on my head and causes me to wonder if I'll actually survive a few years of flight instructing. It all comes with the territory, and I love it, but I am definitely earning it.
As always, there are things I cannot control, like the weather, or my students' attitudes. It's frustrating knowing that for every day I do not fly, I remain that much further away from reaching my goals, like that coveted ranking of 'Captain.' I'll get there someday, but until then, I'm going to enjoy the ride and be grateful I've made it this far. Patience and contentment will become my good friends. Because if I'm always striving to be somewhere, I'll never really arrive anywhere.
One last story for the kids: this past week presented me with an opportunity to oversee what's known as a 'Discovery Flight.' Geared towards inspiring people to sign up for a pilot training program, it's usually the first time someone's flown an aircraft. I perform the takeoff and landing, and monitor the safety of the flight from my right seat position, but for the other thirty minutes or so, the person shelling out the $95 gets to manipulate the controls and play pilot for a day. More often than not, people return from these adventures and instantly whip out the credit card for more flying-it's like a drug. I tried my best to show the prospective flier a good time, vectoring him around some of the more scenic areas and minimizing the amount of time I had to grab the yoke for safety's sake. He maintained a smile for most of the ride, and seemed ecstatic at the prospect of becoming a pilot. Things were going well. But towards the end, he began to sweat profusely, and the Hardee's Thickburgers that he had consumed just moments before departing quickly began a digestive rebellion, and only a mile from the runway all hell broke loose inside his stomach, and soon I was faced with a smelly cockpit, a very uncomfortable passenger, and one miserable mess. Flying might not be for everyone. You can be most definitely assured, however, that I earned this hour of paid flight time, and on this day, for once, I didn't want to be Captain.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Logbooks
I bought a new logbook today. It's large, shiny, and, similar to an imitation Italian sausage, came in a tightly wrapped plastic casing. If you're like me, spending money in any capacity is usually only because it's a special occasion, like birthdays or National Pancake Day. But the beginning of my professional pilot career called for an upgrade from my training logbook, so I ventured across the airstrip and found the biggest, baddest hardcovered journal I could find. Some $30 later, (man that would have paid for a truckload of PB&J's) I emerged carrying what's now the most important document I own. As I made the first few entries from recent flights, I found myself thumbing through the 200 + empty pages, wondering what it'll look like 5, 10 years from now. What kind of aircraft will I be flying? Where am I gonna go? Who's coming with me? After all, the word 'logbook' is really just an adult, grown-up word for storybook. My story tells the tale of my entire training record, of lessons learned and great achievements. It details the highs and lows of persuing a dream, frustrations from listening to my instructors bark orders at me and the elation that came with each passed checkride. It's proof that I did actually do this, even if some days it still doesn't seem real, like I'm on the brink of being woken up and told it's time to get ready for school. Like someone's just going to come along, swipe my pilot's licenses and run off. But it's real, and the logbooks show that it's real.
So maybe my brain is still fried from flight school, or maybe I'm just a nerd, but either way, I think my logbook is special. Thanks to free internet technology, I'm able to share a piece of it here. My instructor back in Texas first showed us the website during our first few weeks there, and it instantly became a source of competition between myself and a few of my classmates to see who could log the greatest variety of airports flown into. We spent hours flight planning to some of the most random plots of pavement we could find, often coercing the CFI's to take us to unauthorized airports in some pretty questionable locations. I've lost track of where I stand, but thanks to a few re-locations and transfers along the way, I'm starting to put dots all over the country.
I've flown to places I never dreamed I'd make it to and airports I never knew existed. I've been fortunate enough to fly over both coasts and the Gulf of Mexico. I've flown above mountains and over vast desert expanses. I've buzzed over the top of some of the coolest sports arenas and around a few major U.S. cities. See, a few months ago I never had the time to sit back and actually enjoy all the flying I was doing. I was overworked and underslept. (Note: probably not a real word.) Now that I'm outside the flight school crucible, I find more joy than ever in being able to fly airplanes, and, miraculously, be paid for doing so. It really is true. Most days, I spring out of bed, anxious to start my day of flying. Hopefully the zeal for flight instructing can sustain me over the next few years until I find my way into an airline career. Regardless, I'm learning as much or more than I ever did during my training. I just still can't believe that it's real. Forgive me if I spend too much time staring at my logbook.
So maybe my brain is still fried from flight school, or maybe I'm just a nerd, but either way, I think my logbook is special. Thanks to free internet technology, I'm able to share a piece of it here. My instructor back in Texas first showed us the website during our first few weeks there, and it instantly became a source of competition between myself and a few of my classmates to see who could log the greatest variety of airports flown into. We spent hours flight planning to some of the most random plots of pavement we could find, often coercing the CFI's to take us to unauthorized airports in some pretty questionable locations. I've lost track of where I stand, but thanks to a few re-locations and transfers along the way, I'm starting to put dots all over the country.
I've flown to places I never dreamed I'd make it to and airports I never knew existed. I've been fortunate enough to fly over both coasts and the Gulf of Mexico. I've flown above mountains and over vast desert expanses. I've buzzed over the top of some of the coolest sports arenas and around a few major U.S. cities. See, a few months ago I never had the time to sit back and actually enjoy all the flying I was doing. I was overworked and underslept. (Note: probably not a real word.) Now that I'm outside the flight school crucible, I find more joy than ever in being able to fly airplanes, and, miraculously, be paid for doing so. It really is true. Most days, I spring out of bed, anxious to start my day of flying. Hopefully the zeal for flight instructing can sustain me over the next few years until I find my way into an airline career. Regardless, I'm learning as much or more than I ever did during my training. I just still can't believe that it's real. Forgive me if I spend too much time staring at my logbook.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Close Call
Growing up in Minnesota, we didn't have a lot of oceans. In fact, we had zero oceans. Imagine then, my excitement when I found out my apartment here in Long Beach was just a few miles from the shores of the Pacific. Even though it's February, plenty of good times can be had in sunny California near the beach. You can play volleyball. You can ride bikes and chase seagulls. You can scope chicks. If you're homeless, you can sleep on the sand and not miss out on too much. Some people fish from the pier; others peer at the fisherman while eating fish tacos. All of these are worthy endeavors. It's not really what you're doing at the beach that's important-it's just about being there. The ocean is the great equalizer for Californians. It doesn't matter if you're dirt poor or Kobe Bryant, anyone can enjoy the panoramic beauty of the Pacific. It's February, and instead of playing 'Survivor: Interstate Gridlock' in icy Minneapolis, I'm basking in the glow of 80 degree days, cloudless skies, and the warm ocean breezes. A good way to spend winter, unless you run an Igloo construction corporation.
Throw in the fact that I'm getting paid to fly airplanes and most days I really do feel as though I've won the lottery sweepstakes. What kind of price tag can you put on that? The cynic would say to just look at my student loan tab, and there's your answer, but it's not about money. Sure it's been a brutally difficult road to even make it this far, and I'm nowhere close to where I ultimately want to go, but it has been an incredibly rewarding past few weeks. For the first time since I began this journey, I am starting to see the payoff for my hard work, and it comes in the form of job enjoyment. And actually, the word 'job' is deceiving: I don't feel like I've worked a single day since I arrived out here.
Certainly not without challenges, however. During standardization training, one of the most oft-repeated company mantras was to be extra careful because the students are 'trying to kill us.' Not with guns and knives, or even Anthrax poisoning, but more in the sense that, as novice pilots, they still lack the necessary decision making skills and safety knowledge that are gradually acquired as training progresses. Heck, just read back a few months and I was in the same boat. More than anything, it takes time to become a skilled pilot, and in most cases, it can't be taught simply by sitting in a classroom or reading a book. That's why it's laughable to think I'm anywhere near being ready to fly for an airline, with paying passengers' lives in my hands. I may be done with training, but I'm finding that I'm learning much more now than I ever did before, when I was in the care of my instructors. And some of the most beneficial lessons I learn are often the most dangerous.
I conduct most of my students' training flights a few miles just out over the ocean, where there's usually a bit less general aviation traffic than flying inland over the city. One of the safety precautions I take is to obtain the services of Air Traffic Control and let them know my position and intentions. It's commonly called 'Flight Following', and mainly used for VFR cross country flights, but in the busy SoCal airspace, it's a nice service to have for local training flights as well. That way, they'll be able to let other airplanes, namely the big, shiny jets, what this clown-of-a-pilot is doing some 5000 feet above the sea, besides impeding their final approach course into one of the major airports out here. Once communication is established, they'll tell me I'm in radar contact and give me frequent updates on the altitude and magnetic heading of other aircraft. It's a nice supplement to the tried-and-true method of looking out of the cockpit and scanning the sky. While I'm still responsible for seeing and avoiding all traffic, it's good to have someone looking out for you, just in case. And a few days ago, while training a rookie pilot on multi-engine maneuvers, it may have saved my life. I was training a student in his last flight prior to taking the multi-engine practical test. The weather was sunny and clear. We had been up in the air for nearly two hours, and as I looked at my watch, I figured we had time for a few more maneuvers before heading back to Long Beach. I had him set up a practice maneuver called a Vmc Demo, which simulates losing an engine, and losing directional control of the aircraft, then recovering. Risk is compounded due to several factors, including flying at slower airspeeds and a very high angle of attack, which reduces my ability to see outside the nose of the airplane. As the student began the maneuver, my Portable Collision Avoidance System began to bleep. I glanced towards the handheld device, and its reading showed traffic some 2000 feet above me, in the vicinity of 3 miles. After searching the sky from my right seat position, I returned my attention to coaching the student through the maneuver and kept my PCAS cradled in my hand. Despite the company's generosity in providing us with these, I often find them more annoying than helpful, especially in the busy SoCal airspace. Plagued with inaccuracy, I've often seen other airplanes far closer than I'd like that fail to show up on the device. It's almost like watching 'The Bachelor'; you never really know what to believe. Despite the buzzing, I kept my student in the maneuver, thinking the other airplane was still a ways off. By now, you can imagine where this story is headed.
A few seconds later, the air traffic controller I had been talking to came over our headsets, and gave us the traffic alert: 'Seminole 263AT, traffic 10 O'Clock, 2 miles, SE bound. Turn right heading 030 for spacing.' I responded in kind, and had my student stop the maneuver while we searched for the jet somewhere in our vicinity. I grabbed the controls for a second, gently nudging the airplane in a right banked turn for a few seconds. My PCAS was silent on this round, and now I was legitimately wondering if I'd see the other plane. Still, I thought we were good.
I started talking again to the student, and began to set him up for the next maneuver, when the controller came over the radio once again, only this time with a strong sense of urgency: 'Seminole 263AT, turn right IMMEDIATELY for traffic!' This time, I swung the aircraft sharply to the right, changing our heading by another 30 degrees in just a few seconds. I stabilized the aircraft, and began to rapidly scan the area. It was here I saw the jet, just outside our left window, a few hundred feet below us, on what appeared to be direct path towards our previous position. Just missed us. Whew. Exhale.
You know the feeling you get when you're speeding along on the freeway, and all of the sudden you see the flashing red and blue police lights? You've just been pulled over. Your heart sinks. Muscles tighten, your throat dies up like the Sahara. In an instant, you've gone from being in total control to complete submission. It's terrifying. (Um, not that this has ever happened to me) Multiply that by about 10 and you'll know what I felt that day. Would we have hit the other plane? Probably not, but maybe. I was legitimately spooked. After a few minutes of wiping the sweat off my face and catching my breath, I decided to terminate the flight and head back towards the airport.
I love to fly, and no experience could change that. But when I climbed out of that airplane and set my feet back on the tarmac, I've never felt happier to be on the ground. It only took a few weeks, but I'd had my first real scare as a flight instructor. Let's hope it's along time before something like that happens again. I thanked the approach controller profusely as I signed off, and went on with my day, thankful that I hadn't ended up as one of those horrific aviation accident statistics that I'm always reading about. I lived to fly another day.
Throw in the fact that I'm getting paid to fly airplanes and most days I really do feel as though I've won the lottery sweepstakes. What kind of price tag can you put on that? The cynic would say to just look at my student loan tab, and there's your answer, but it's not about money. Sure it's been a brutally difficult road to even make it this far, and I'm nowhere close to where I ultimately want to go, but it has been an incredibly rewarding past few weeks. For the first time since I began this journey, I am starting to see the payoff for my hard work, and it comes in the form of job enjoyment. And actually, the word 'job' is deceiving: I don't feel like I've worked a single day since I arrived out here.
Certainly not without challenges, however. During standardization training, one of the most oft-repeated company mantras was to be extra careful because the students are 'trying to kill us.' Not with guns and knives, or even Anthrax poisoning, but more in the sense that, as novice pilots, they still lack the necessary decision making skills and safety knowledge that are gradually acquired as training progresses. Heck, just read back a few months and I was in the same boat. More than anything, it takes time to become a skilled pilot, and in most cases, it can't be taught simply by sitting in a classroom or reading a book. That's why it's laughable to think I'm anywhere near being ready to fly for an airline, with paying passengers' lives in my hands. I may be done with training, but I'm finding that I'm learning much more now than I ever did before, when I was in the care of my instructors. And some of the most beneficial lessons I learn are often the most dangerous.
I conduct most of my students' training flights a few miles just out over the ocean, where there's usually a bit less general aviation traffic than flying inland over the city. One of the safety precautions I take is to obtain the services of Air Traffic Control and let them know my position and intentions. It's commonly called 'Flight Following', and mainly used for VFR cross country flights, but in the busy SoCal airspace, it's a nice service to have for local training flights as well. That way, they'll be able to let other airplanes, namely the big, shiny jets, what this clown-of-a-pilot is doing some 5000 feet above the sea, besides impeding their final approach course into one of the major airports out here. Once communication is established, they'll tell me I'm in radar contact and give me frequent updates on the altitude and magnetic heading of other aircraft. It's a nice supplement to the tried-and-true method of looking out of the cockpit and scanning the sky. While I'm still responsible for seeing and avoiding all traffic, it's good to have someone looking out for you, just in case. And a few days ago, while training a rookie pilot on multi-engine maneuvers, it may have saved my life. I was training a student in his last flight prior to taking the multi-engine practical test. The weather was sunny and clear. We had been up in the air for nearly two hours, and as I looked at my watch, I figured we had time for a few more maneuvers before heading back to Long Beach. I had him set up a practice maneuver called a Vmc Demo, which simulates losing an engine, and losing directional control of the aircraft, then recovering. Risk is compounded due to several factors, including flying at slower airspeeds and a very high angle of attack, which reduces my ability to see outside the nose of the airplane. As the student began the maneuver, my Portable Collision Avoidance System began to bleep. I glanced towards the handheld device, and its reading showed traffic some 2000 feet above me, in the vicinity of 3 miles. After searching the sky from my right seat position, I returned my attention to coaching the student through the maneuver and kept my PCAS cradled in my hand. Despite the company's generosity in providing us with these, I often find them more annoying than helpful, especially in the busy SoCal airspace. Plagued with inaccuracy, I've often seen other airplanes far closer than I'd like that fail to show up on the device. It's almost like watching 'The Bachelor'; you never really know what to believe. Despite the buzzing, I kept my student in the maneuver, thinking the other airplane was still a ways off. By now, you can imagine where this story is headed.
A few seconds later, the air traffic controller I had been talking to came over our headsets, and gave us the traffic alert: 'Seminole 263AT, traffic 10 O'Clock, 2 miles, SE bound. Turn right heading 030 for spacing.' I responded in kind, and had my student stop the maneuver while we searched for the jet somewhere in our vicinity. I grabbed the controls for a second, gently nudging the airplane in a right banked turn for a few seconds. My PCAS was silent on this round, and now I was legitimately wondering if I'd see the other plane. Still, I thought we were good.
I started talking again to the student, and began to set him up for the next maneuver, when the controller came over the radio once again, only this time with a strong sense of urgency: 'Seminole 263AT, turn right IMMEDIATELY for traffic!' This time, I swung the aircraft sharply to the right, changing our heading by another 30 degrees in just a few seconds. I stabilized the aircraft, and began to rapidly scan the area. It was here I saw the jet, just outside our left window, a few hundred feet below us, on what appeared to be direct path towards our previous position. Just missed us. Whew. Exhale.
You know the feeling you get when you're speeding along on the freeway, and all of the sudden you see the flashing red and blue police lights? You've just been pulled over. Your heart sinks. Muscles tighten, your throat dies up like the Sahara. In an instant, you've gone from being in total control to complete submission. It's terrifying. (Um, not that this has ever happened to me) Multiply that by about 10 and you'll know what I felt that day. Would we have hit the other plane? Probably not, but maybe. I was legitimately spooked. After a few minutes of wiping the sweat off my face and catching my breath, I decided to terminate the flight and head back towards the airport.
I love to fly, and no experience could change that. But when I climbed out of that airplane and set my feet back on the tarmac, I've never felt happier to be on the ground. It only took a few weeks, but I'd had my first real scare as a flight instructor. Let's hope it's along time before something like that happens again. I thanked the approach controller profusely as I signed off, and went on with my day, thankful that I hadn't ended up as one of those horrific aviation accident statistics that I'm always reading about. I lived to fly another day.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Round Two
I used to love looking at maps. As a kid, I'd pull out the biggest road atlas I could find, then try to pick out towns that appeared to be the furthest apart, and guess their distances. I'd look up the most remote locations, and estimate how long it'd take to get there. I spent hours staring holes into these maps, simply because I enjoyed it. In a related story, I also wore braces, had no girlfriend, and spent considerable time trying to pry myself out of school lockers. But as I pored over these maps, I kept coming back to Texas, and was always dumbfounded that a state could be so big. I deduced that one could spend an entire day driving from one corner to the next, and yet still not make it out of the state. Factor in the scorching heat and you're looking at a solid 12-14 hours of desert misery, which is infinitely different than dessert mystery. Fools, I thought. I'll never drive that. What a waste of time.
As I'm learning lately, elements of my past are continually creeping into the forefront of my life. Despite my best efforts to be 'drafted' by the company location I most desired, I got word late Monday evening that I would be headed out to Long Beach, CA. Goodbye Atlantic Ocean, hello Pacific. No more Jacksonville, but plenty more driving: including a straight shot through (yep, you guessed it) the heart of southern Texas. I spent most of that night ignorning Mapquest's driving directions page, instead choosing to focus my energies on procrastinating anything that resembled packing up my Jacksonville apartment. The next day, I trudged wearily into the company offices, hoping there had been some form of paperwork error or misinformation. Nope. It would be Long Beach. Almost on cue, one of the company executives laughingly pulled up the route, and cheerfully announced, "Wow, 38 hours, have fun with that trip." Thanks, man. Getting Long Beach as a base was like being named CEO of Waffle House-sure, you're excited to have reached this point in your career, but there's definitely some obstacles to overcome. After all, it was only a week earlier that I'd made the fateful joke about being 'banished to some random place, like Long Beach.' Well, here I am. Long Beach, California. Gulp.
A few snapshots from my life on the road:
-I alluded to it before, but as it turns out, Texas is really, really big. Crossing the Louisiana-Texas state line, I encountered an ominous road sign: El Paso, 857 miles. In moment of self-denial, I quickly reached for my atlas, hoping that somehow, that wasn't my route. Nope. I settled into the driver's seat a little bit deeper, relaxed my grip on the steering wheel, and took a deep, deep breath. This was going to be one long drive.
-Because I'd been driving since 9PM the previous night, I knew my stamina was about to reach the 'disgruntled fast-food employee' level quickly. I drove for a few more hours, then settled in to a Motel 6 just past San Antonio. As always, my thoughts turned to food, and I starting salivating towards the thought of a hot breakfast bar the next morning. Of course, when I woke up and inquired about said spread, the lady at the counter chortled and replied, "No, there's no breakfast here, but we do have free toothpicks!" Awesome. Thanks for all your help. The next time I'm driving 38 hours across the country and starving to death, I'll be sure to stop by your hotel and clean the food particles out of my teeth.
-Apparently there's not one Chinese person in all of Mississippi or Louisiana. I scoured the freeways for the better part of 5 hours as I transversed their states in vain for a Chinese buffet, but couldn't find one. I kept driving and driving, hoping that each subsequent exit would deliver. I wanted a Chinese buffet. Eventually, as the hunger pains began to take their toll, I resigned myself to pulling over at a Subway. Sure enough, at the first exit heading into Texas, just moments after finishing my sandwich, was a Chinese buffet. Next time, I'm using Mapquest to highlight every Chinese establishment in a six-state radius, just to be safe. I havn't been that disappointed since Home Alone 3.
-In the barren wasteland that is New Mexico, it's not uncommon to travel for long stretches without seeing any signs of life. Ordinarily, this isn't a problem, but when the Silver Tauras' gas light's been on for twenty minutes, a sense of panic ensues. After all, I've made plenty of jokes throughout this blog about pilots being eaten by wild animals. The last thing a traveler wants to have happen is run out of gas on the Interstate in a strange, lonely place. I couldn't remember the last roadsign I'd seen. How far was the next town? Once again, I instinctively reached for the road atlas, hoping to find some off-the-beaten path joint with gas services. No luck. I reduced my speed to a more fuel-efficient 55 MPH, hoping to stave off the impending doom as long as possible. I began to sweat and curse myself for not filling up an hour ago, when I had 1/4 tank left. Finally, out of nowhere, a small outpost appeared on the horizon. "Separ Gift Shop." (Note: this town was so tiny it's not even ON a map. It's true.) I could see the fueling station pumps from the exit ramp, and my I finally exhaled after nearly a half hour of terror. But, as things often seem to be for me, the town of Separ did not have fuel that day. Only the tattered remnants of a once-proud establishment remained. Incredulously, I walked inside to the gift shop, and demanded to know where they were hiding my gas. The poor counter-lady couldn't have been more distraught when I told her how long I'd been driving on empty, how I was SURE there was gas here. Despite her best efforts to sell me some moccasins and cowhide vests, I told her I really needed gas, and asked what the nearest place was. All she could muster was a consolitory, "Honey, if you want GAS, you're looking at TWENTY MINUTES, at least."
Now... it was pouring rain. I had neglected my atlas. My car hated me for subjecting it to a 3rd cross country drive in less than a month. I was hungry. Nobody else was around. Sunset was just around the corner. Thanks to some poor planning, my cell battery was waning. The odds of this story turning out good were about the same as me starting a gardening enthusiasts club. I did the only thing I could: got back into the car, began to pray that I'd miraculously make it to the next town, and kept driving west. As I crept back onto the Interstate, my car bellowed at me like one of those African water buffaloes. Pretending to be deaf, I stepped on the gas pedal, set the cruise for 55 MPH, and kept praying. Soon, a mile passed. Then five. So far, so good. I counted out ten miles, and now I was feeling it, like a high-roller who hits a hot streak at a Craps table. My atlas showed a sizable town, only 11 miles away. I used a Post-It note to cover up my fuel indicator, defiantly protesting against its indications. Another mile down. More prayers. By now, my situation was less dire: if the car died here, at least I was closer to fuel. In the end, it didn't matter: a few minutes later, my car coasted with relative ease to a large fuel station, and in my mind, onlookers and other passerby were cheering and applauding one of the greatest moments in New Mexico transportation history. Somehow, someway, my 15 gallon fuel tank managed to take 15.7 gallons of fuel. I think I'll frame the receipt. The Silver Tauras, and God, had conquered fuel starvation. The name of the town? Lordsburg. Some things were just meant to happen.
As I'm learning lately, elements of my past are continually creeping into the forefront of my life. Despite my best efforts to be 'drafted' by the company location I most desired, I got word late Monday evening that I would be headed out to Long Beach, CA. Goodbye Atlantic Ocean, hello Pacific. No more Jacksonville, but plenty more driving: including a straight shot through (yep, you guessed it) the heart of southern Texas. I spent most of that night ignorning Mapquest's driving directions page, instead choosing to focus my energies on procrastinating anything that resembled packing up my Jacksonville apartment. The next day, I trudged wearily into the company offices, hoping there had been some form of paperwork error or misinformation. Nope. It would be Long Beach. Almost on cue, one of the company executives laughingly pulled up the route, and cheerfully announced, "Wow, 38 hours, have fun with that trip." Thanks, man. Getting Long Beach as a base was like being named CEO of Waffle House-sure, you're excited to have reached this point in your career, but there's definitely some obstacles to overcome. After all, it was only a week earlier that I'd made the fateful joke about being 'banished to some random place, like Long Beach.' Well, here I am. Long Beach, California. Gulp.
A few snapshots from my life on the road:
-I alluded to it before, but as it turns out, Texas is really, really big. Crossing the Louisiana-Texas state line, I encountered an ominous road sign: El Paso, 857 miles. In moment of self-denial, I quickly reached for my atlas, hoping that somehow, that wasn't my route. Nope. I settled into the driver's seat a little bit deeper, relaxed my grip on the steering wheel, and took a deep, deep breath. This was going to be one long drive.
-Because I'd been driving since 9PM the previous night, I knew my stamina was about to reach the 'disgruntled fast-food employee' level quickly. I drove for a few more hours, then settled in to a Motel 6 just past San Antonio. As always, my thoughts turned to food, and I starting salivating towards the thought of a hot breakfast bar the next morning. Of course, when I woke up and inquired about said spread, the lady at the counter chortled and replied, "No, there's no breakfast here, but we do have free toothpicks!" Awesome. Thanks for all your help. The next time I'm driving 38 hours across the country and starving to death, I'll be sure to stop by your hotel and clean the food particles out of my teeth.
-Apparently there's not one Chinese person in all of Mississippi or Louisiana. I scoured the freeways for the better part of 5 hours as I transversed their states in vain for a Chinese buffet, but couldn't find one. I kept driving and driving, hoping that each subsequent exit would deliver. I wanted a Chinese buffet. Eventually, as the hunger pains began to take their toll, I resigned myself to pulling over at a Subway. Sure enough, at the first exit heading into Texas, just moments after finishing my sandwich, was a Chinese buffet. Next time, I'm using Mapquest to highlight every Chinese establishment in a six-state radius, just to be safe. I havn't been that disappointed since Home Alone 3.
-In the barren wasteland that is New Mexico, it's not uncommon to travel for long stretches without seeing any signs of life. Ordinarily, this isn't a problem, but when the Silver Tauras' gas light's been on for twenty minutes, a sense of panic ensues. After all, I've made plenty of jokes throughout this blog about pilots being eaten by wild animals. The last thing a traveler wants to have happen is run out of gas on the Interstate in a strange, lonely place. I couldn't remember the last roadsign I'd seen. How far was the next town? Once again, I instinctively reached for the road atlas, hoping to find some off-the-beaten path joint with gas services. No luck. I reduced my speed to a more fuel-efficient 55 MPH, hoping to stave off the impending doom as long as possible. I began to sweat and curse myself for not filling up an hour ago, when I had 1/4 tank left. Finally, out of nowhere, a small outpost appeared on the horizon. "Separ Gift Shop." (Note: this town was so tiny it's not even ON a map. It's true.) I could see the fueling station pumps from the exit ramp, and my I finally exhaled after nearly a half hour of terror. But, as things often seem to be for me, the town of Separ did not have fuel that day. Only the tattered remnants of a once-proud establishment remained. Incredulously, I walked inside to the gift shop, and demanded to know where they were hiding my gas. The poor counter-lady couldn't have been more distraught when I told her how long I'd been driving on empty, how I was SURE there was gas here. Despite her best efforts to sell me some moccasins and cowhide vests, I told her I really needed gas, and asked what the nearest place was. All she could muster was a consolitory, "Honey, if you want GAS, you're looking at TWENTY MINUTES, at least."
Now... it was pouring rain. I had neglected my atlas. My car hated me for subjecting it to a 3rd cross country drive in less than a month. I was hungry. Nobody else was around. Sunset was just around the corner. Thanks to some poor planning, my cell battery was waning. The odds of this story turning out good were about the same as me starting a gardening enthusiasts club. I did the only thing I could: got back into the car, began to pray that I'd miraculously make it to the next town, and kept driving west. As I crept back onto the Interstate, my car bellowed at me like one of those African water buffaloes. Pretending to be deaf, I stepped on the gas pedal, set the cruise for 55 MPH, and kept praying. Soon, a mile passed. Then five. So far, so good. I counted out ten miles, and now I was feeling it, like a high-roller who hits a hot streak at a Craps table. My atlas showed a sizable town, only 11 miles away. I used a Post-It note to cover up my fuel indicator, defiantly protesting against its indications. Another mile down. More prayers. By now, my situation was less dire: if the car died here, at least I was closer to fuel. In the end, it didn't matter: a few minutes later, my car coasted with relative ease to a large fuel station, and in my mind, onlookers and other passerby were cheering and applauding one of the greatest moments in New Mexico transportation history. Somehow, someway, my 15 gallon fuel tank managed to take 15.7 gallons of fuel. I think I'll frame the receipt. The Silver Tauras, and God, had conquered fuel starvation. The name of the town? Lordsburg. Some things were just meant to happen.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Training Days
Of all the Rat's nest, this is horrible things about life, few can stand up to the excruciating monotony of searching for a job. The agonizing periods of waiting, the endless recording of information minutae, and especially the rejection letters-of-doom all add up to some fairly undesirable feelings. More than a few people can relate, especially given the economy. As I neared the flight school finish line, more than anything else I dreaded the long days of trolling the internet for possible job openings and submitting resumes to unnamed human resource personnel in far off places I never dreamed I'd consider living. Fortunately, for all parties involved, I didn't have to wait or search long: while spending the afternoon after my final checkride cleaning the apartment and packing my car, I received an email from the HR department of my flight school, wanting to know if I'd be available for a phone interview later that afternoon. I cleared my schedule (read: there was nothing to be cleared) and prepared myself for what she might ask. The interview came and went, and a few hours later, I had been offered a job as a flight instructor, and I'd be headed back one of my least favorite U.S. cities: Jacksonville, FL.
My disdain for Jax runs deep, stemming from an encounter with a disgruntled taxicab driver back in October and continuing on with my epic two week CFI school imprisonment shortly before Christmas. Throw in the fact that it's one of the most sprawling cities around (count on thirty minutes of driving to get anywhere), obscenely high crime rates, and an overwhelming surplus of overpriced Publix grocery stores and one might begin to form an idea of why even Cleveland ranks higher on USA Today's "Top 10 Most Desirable Getaways" List. I made that last part up. But, still.
Some decisions are hard in life, like determining which breakfast cereal to eat, or whether or not Ben Affleck wears a tupee. Accepting this job wasn't one of them. In aviation, a sure-fire offer on the table always trumps what could be out there. I originally had grand visions of working as a bush pilot up in Alaska, or spending a few years overseas as a missionary pilot. And perhaps someday those plans will still come to fruition. But with a concrete offer on the table, I elected to go with the sure thing. For now, I'm thrilled to be working for the flight school I attended, and even more fortunate to be receiving a paycheck FOR FLYING AIRPLANES. Six months ago, when I first enrolled, completing school on time and exiting with a job offer in hand would have been the absolute most desirable outcome. I like how things turned out, even if I'm in Jacksonville, although it's not entirely awful living three miles from the ocean on 70 degree January days. Somebody has to do it-might as well be me.
It's not been easy. Compressing the amount of information I just learned into a 5 month, 150 Day program was intense, but the company's standardization training has obliterated anything I've ever encountered. It's like brushing your teeth at the bottom of Niagara Falls-just a catastrophic amount of excess pressure everywhere you turn. The demands placed upon me as a salaried pilot are taking their toll. Each day has been chock full of training sessions, simulator prep work, and a ridiculous amount of hours spent in the company business center, where we counsel prospective students on the perils of enrolling in our school. Before we are unleashed to one of the company's 25 nationwide locations, however, we must pass five thorough simulator evalation sessions and two flights with the Chief Instructor. It is here where I ran into my first major obstacle.
Flying in any simulator is the classic double edge sword illustration. You're performing the same checklists, announcing the same callouts, and configuring the device as you would in the air. The value of spending time in a simulator is definitely tangible. However, most sims are often labeled as being squirrelly, or difficult to fly. The obvious difference is that, in the air, you're able to 'feel' the aircraft as changes are made, and compensate accordingly. The reality is, there's simply no substitute for the real thing. Now, I'd succeeded in the sim before, but in my first attempt to pass the evaluation sessions, I crumbled under the pressure and received an unsatisfactory rating. Failing the sim session meant I lost my instructor seniority and was moved to the back of the line. I watched as the four people I was hired with plowed through their sim blocks with the ease of someone loading up their plate at Old Country Buffet. For two weeks I languished in uncertainty, wondering when I'd get another chance. In the meantime, I began pulling even longer days, spending two or three hours in the morning running through procedures and operations and another few hours at night flying in the simulator. Soon, I'd pushed myself to exhaustion and had to take a step back.
No disrespect to anyone who may have, at one point, ran an illegal dogfigthing operation, but these really have been the dog days of my fledgling pilot career. Moments of doubt, mixed with frustration and impatience, are the defining elements of my new struggle. I knew climbing the ladder would be tough, but until you're a few rungs up, you really don't know how far it is to go. Like I used to lament back in my private pilot days, it seems as though everyone is a better, safer, and more experienced pilot than I. And it's true: they are.
I remember thinking, back a few months ago, that when I finished flight school, that THEN I would celebrate and enjoy my hard work. I would lay around, basking in the glow of being done. I would be lazy. Sleep in. I would get fat. These were the things I looked forward to. I distincly recall telling myself to feel proud of what I'd accomplished, that I'd finally 'made it'. Nothing could be farther from the truth. The reality is I am a rookie, that I really don't know too much about anything, and this is the part of my life where I take my lumps, early and often. Responsibility has increased tenfold-I'm no longer the trainee-and it's all on my shoulders. The company has a saying, "If you see it, you're responsible." These days I'm seeing everything. There's no time to be lazy, and get fat, because I've got a flying career now. I am responsible. It is an incredibly sobering thought, that I know just enough to legally teach someone how to fly, and not much else. It's enough to keep me dilligent in my studies, and more than enough to motivate me towards give my everything to the students I'll be teaching.
Fast forward to a few days ago. With all that extra practice time built in, I breezed through the final few simulator evalutations, passed my initial recommendation flight, and now am readying myself for one final flight. Then, I'll wait, for my name to be called, for the final word on where I'll begin my flying career. Early word from HR is that I'll be headed to Indianapolis, or possibly Atlanta. Like an NBA Draft prospect awaiting his fate, I'll be anxious to find out where my Silver Tauras will deliver me next. I only know one thing: it will be someplace other than Jacksonville.
My disdain for Jax runs deep, stemming from an encounter with a disgruntled taxicab driver back in October and continuing on with my epic two week CFI school imprisonment shortly before Christmas. Throw in the fact that it's one of the most sprawling cities around (count on thirty minutes of driving to get anywhere), obscenely high crime rates, and an overwhelming surplus of overpriced Publix grocery stores and one might begin to form an idea of why even Cleveland ranks higher on USA Today's "Top 10 Most Desirable Getaways" List. I made that last part up. But, still.
Some decisions are hard in life, like determining which breakfast cereal to eat, or whether or not Ben Affleck wears a tupee. Accepting this job wasn't one of them. In aviation, a sure-fire offer on the table always trumps what could be out there. I originally had grand visions of working as a bush pilot up in Alaska, or spending a few years overseas as a missionary pilot. And perhaps someday those plans will still come to fruition. But with a concrete offer on the table, I elected to go with the sure thing. For now, I'm thrilled to be working for the flight school I attended, and even more fortunate to be receiving a paycheck FOR FLYING AIRPLANES. Six months ago, when I first enrolled, completing school on time and exiting with a job offer in hand would have been the absolute most desirable outcome. I like how things turned out, even if I'm in Jacksonville, although it's not entirely awful living three miles from the ocean on 70 degree January days. Somebody has to do it-might as well be me.
It's not been easy. Compressing the amount of information I just learned into a 5 month, 150 Day program was intense, but the company's standardization training has obliterated anything I've ever encountered. It's like brushing your teeth at the bottom of Niagara Falls-just a catastrophic amount of excess pressure everywhere you turn. The demands placed upon me as a salaried pilot are taking their toll. Each day has been chock full of training sessions, simulator prep work, and a ridiculous amount of hours spent in the company business center, where we counsel prospective students on the perils of enrolling in our school. Before we are unleashed to one of the company's 25 nationwide locations, however, we must pass five thorough simulator evalation sessions and two flights with the Chief Instructor. It is here where I ran into my first major obstacle.
Flying in any simulator is the classic double edge sword illustration. You're performing the same checklists, announcing the same callouts, and configuring the device as you would in the air. The value of spending time in a simulator is definitely tangible. However, most sims are often labeled as being squirrelly, or difficult to fly. The obvious difference is that, in the air, you're able to 'feel' the aircraft as changes are made, and compensate accordingly. The reality is, there's simply no substitute for the real thing. Now, I'd succeeded in the sim before, but in my first attempt to pass the evaluation sessions, I crumbled under the pressure and received an unsatisfactory rating. Failing the sim session meant I lost my instructor seniority and was moved to the back of the line. I watched as the four people I was hired with plowed through their sim blocks with the ease of someone loading up their plate at Old Country Buffet. For two weeks I languished in uncertainty, wondering when I'd get another chance. In the meantime, I began pulling even longer days, spending two or three hours in the morning running through procedures and operations and another few hours at night flying in the simulator. Soon, I'd pushed myself to exhaustion and had to take a step back.
No disrespect to anyone who may have, at one point, ran an illegal dogfigthing operation, but these really have been the dog days of my fledgling pilot career. Moments of doubt, mixed with frustration and impatience, are the defining elements of my new struggle. I knew climbing the ladder would be tough, but until you're a few rungs up, you really don't know how far it is to go. Like I used to lament back in my private pilot days, it seems as though everyone is a better, safer, and more experienced pilot than I. And it's true: they are.
I remember thinking, back a few months ago, that when I finished flight school, that THEN I would celebrate and enjoy my hard work. I would lay around, basking in the glow of being done. I would be lazy. Sleep in. I would get fat. These were the things I looked forward to. I distincly recall telling myself to feel proud of what I'd accomplished, that I'd finally 'made it'. Nothing could be farther from the truth. The reality is I am a rookie, that I really don't know too much about anything, and this is the part of my life where I take my lumps, early and often. Responsibility has increased tenfold-I'm no longer the trainee-and it's all on my shoulders. The company has a saying, "If you see it, you're responsible." These days I'm seeing everything. There's no time to be lazy, and get fat, because I've got a flying career now. I am responsible. It is an incredibly sobering thought, that I know just enough to legally teach someone how to fly, and not much else. It's enough to keep me dilligent in my studies, and more than enough to motivate me towards give my everything to the students I'll be teaching.
Fast forward to a few days ago. With all that extra practice time built in, I breezed through the final few simulator evalutations, passed my initial recommendation flight, and now am readying myself for one final flight. Then, I'll wait, for my name to be called, for the final word on where I'll begin my flying career. Early word from HR is that I'll be headed to Indianapolis, or possibly Atlanta. Like an NBA Draft prospect awaiting his fate, I'll be anxious to find out where my Silver Tauras will deliver me next. I only know one thing: it will be someplace other than Jacksonville.
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